CONFUSED.

I didn't quite know how to express this for the longest time, but I've been feeling kinda confused lately. I just feel that there's so much, maybe too much, that I want to get myself into, yet can't seem to focus on anything. I'm struggling to stay on the same train of thought right now. I have a goal to feel at least mildly satisfied with what I have accomplished with my life by the time I reach the age of 21, and I am nowhere close. Yeah, there was the successful surgery, but I don't want to leave it at that. I want to be able to make some form of income and have my efforts to make this income recognised in other ways. I always try to remain positive and believe that this gratification will come in some form or another in time, but another part of me wants to see it much sooner. That's normal though, right? Maybe I just need to see a sign that I'm heading in the right direction. Maybe I need to learn to focus my energy and effort on one thing at a time. Maybe I just need to grow some balls, bite the bullet and get shit done no matter what. Whatever it is, I need a plan.